On my mind...

Ever have one of those days where thoughts an ideas are just SWIMMING around in your head, bursting to get out? Today is one of those days.

I've been thinking a lot the past few days about where I am headed career-wise, and taking inventory of how I feel about work, school, and beyond.

It's come to my attention that I am spending most of my free time... WORKING.

Ha!

I'm a compulsive e-mail checker, a huge worry wart, and sometimes pay TOO much attention to detail. When I should be coming home at the end of the day and focusing on other things like my house, my husband, my dog, hobbies, friends, etc. (not necessarily in that order!) I am actually just sitting back down at the computer and working more.

Something's gotta give.

For those of you that know me - you know that although I took my full-time position with GAAH almost a year ago, I stayed on in a limited capacity at the YMCA coordinating the arts programs there. At the time, I thought staying at the Y would be a good way for me to stay connected for future career moves.

Lately, it's causing me more stress than my "regular" job.

And it's not because I don't like the Y. I love the Y. I strongly believe in their mission, and the arts' vital role in it.

I just think it's too much. I think it's taking up much more time than I intended, and I think if I'm not careful it could affect my "regular" job, and my personal life too.

I feel like I need to put more time and energy into my "regular" job, to make sure I do a FABULOUS job, and to make sure I'm ready to move to the next stage in my career in the next few years. Whatever that may be... : )

So just prioritize, right? Maybe it's time to say goodbye to working two jobs.

Easier said than done.

I feel like if I leave the Y I am failing, and I feel like I'd be ditching the wonderful staff I've hand-picked and nurtured over the years. It feels like if I left I would be selfish.

But I think I need time for other things.

I need to finish school, for one. And I'd like to take some arts classes myself - get back into all things musical, take a dance class, an art class, a photography class...

And I'd like to have time to visit friends after work. A lot of them have kiddos nowadays (congrats Allison & Aaron on their new arrival - baby Kenyon!) and later evenings no longer work for them. Plus it's just nice to have some downtime in between work and bedtime - where I can have the option to do social things!

And there's spending time with the hubby too. Of course I want to do that... : )

I guess I'm a little overwhelmed. Maybe I'm not Superwoman after all?

Darn.